Reality Strikes

Here is what my life looks like right now.

Since last August, we have had major issues with our kids sleeping in their own rooms because of me, my anxiety, and my inability to maintain consistency and balance in my own life; it has begun to reak havoc on my kids and their routines.

We would do okay for a bit, and then I would reward them with a night in my room, or someone would get sick and the cycle would continue. Because of my own issues, not willing to work through hard times, to take care of my own issues tbis is where we are today.

My kids struggle with separation anxiety because I showed them how to create the anxiety. I showed them how to be afraid to sleep alone, rather then the be brave.

I showed them that sleeping together is the only way to calm you fears, to avoid hard things and to ignore problems rather then face them head on. How to sleep though life rather than to face it.

So now, we are all working together, to work through this, one step at a time, but the thing is, I have to be the strong one. I have to hold it together so they know they are safe, they are okay to sleep on their own, and that I am too.

So we take it a step at a time, to move them a little further away until they are comfortable being independent; in their own rooms, their own space, knowing that I am always here for them.